the latter to poke me up about Story. Down town, dined at the
Rainbow, called at Picayune, Fulton Street & Avery s office. Got
lot of little things at 12 1/2 cents each to do for him. Back and work.
Writing, wearily. Returning from my cheap supper met Hillard
brother of Oliver (whom I met in Lake Superior.) and shortly after
he came up. The little hook nosed, well bearded hearty fellow was
glad to see me, which pleasure I shared. They to the theatre, and
I to my room & pen work.
26. Wednesday. Drawing in the morning. Writing anon.
27. Thursday. Writing, getting nervous, hypochondriacal, discon-
tent with myself. Thoughts of a thousand things past and present,
all evil, self distrust sitting like an Incubus on my soul. Parton
came up in the afternoon, and gave me a glimpse of pleasure in the
intelligence of the fall of Sebastopol, which in a few ensuing minutes
the newsboys were crying beneath my window, making all Broad-
way vociferous with it. I m glad of it, heart and soul. Whitelaw
called at 6 or later, and found me recumbent, trying to think I
might doze awhile. All day long the sunlight had seemed to reproach
my loneliness and a brainsick endeavours to write. Each sentence I
have penned seemed harsh, disjointed, awkward, miserable.
28. Friday. Inconceivably miserable.
29. Saturday. Misery continued. Akin almost to insanity.
Thinking I m to be a failure. Down town to the Fulton Street shop at
supper time, feeding with Alf & Sol. In the park subsequently
where cannons were being fired, in honor of some Tammany Hall mob.
Felt more lonely than ever. To Whitelaws, at Spring Street. His
good little wife was bustling about, he telling me of his entering
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Seven: page one hundred and fifty-one|
|Description:||Describes feeling miserable because of his fears that he will be a failure.|
|Subject:||Avery; Eytinge, Solomon; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Hillard, Frank; Hillard, Oliver; Parton, James; Waud, Alfred; Welden, Charles; Whitelaw, Matthew; Whitelaw, Matthew, Mrs.|
|Coverage (City/State):||[New York, New York]|
|Coverage (Street):||Broadway; Fulton Street; Spring Street|
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Seven|
|Description:||Includes an account of his family history and descriptions of his visits with family and friends in England, witnessing a procession for Louis Napoleon in London, traveling in Paris with his brothers Charley and Edwin, his friend Harry Price's mental illness, his journey across the Atlantic to New York on the ship Washington, the marriage of Fanny Fern and James Parton, meetings of the Ornithoryncus Club in New York, and Alfred Waud's elopement with Mary Brainard.|
|Subject:||Bohemians; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Marriage; Mental illness; Publishers and publishing; Travel; Women|
|Coverage (City/State):||London, England; Paris, France; New York, New York|
|Note:||Thomas Butler Gunn was born February 15, 1826, in Banbury, England, and came to New York in 1849. During the Civil War he worked as a correspondent for the New York Tribune and the New York Evening Post. He returned to England in 1863, and died in Birmingham in April 1903. The collection includes twenty-one volumes of his diaries, including newspaper clippings, letters, photographs, sketches, and various other items inserted by Gunn. Diary entries date from July 7, 1849, to April 7, 1863, and include his experiences with the New York publishing and literary world, his descriptions of boarding houses, his travels throughout the United States, and his experiences traveling with the Federal army as a Civil War correspondent.|
|Publisher:||Missouri History Museum|
|Rights:||Copyright 2011 Missouri History Museum.|
|Source:||Page images, transcriptions, and metadata of the Thomas Butler Gunn diaries have been provided by the Missouri History Museum.|