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her of a man she regarded only with disgust and ab-
horrence, and whom she shrank from meeting, getting
paler and of a more touching melancholy each day.  I
endeavoured to prevail on her to pluck up courage and
run off; but for her mother and sisters she would
not.     Again the day of his arrival came.   On that
evening, for the first time since Mary left Dobson s
I called, and had been there some five minutes when
he entered.     Jealous anger shone with dull light from
his eyes; he was not civil, perhaps it could hardly
be expected.    I could have killed him then, I was
armed, I was mad   may I never feel so terrible
a craving for human life again, may no man s life
hang on such an effort as I was forced to make.
I departed.   Mary accompanied me to the door.  One 
kiss   I thought the last, and it closed.   Half-
fainting I supported myself by the rails, and then, 
sped away as one who runs for life.   How I spent
the next four days God knows, I cannot recollect,
only a dim vision of sleepless nights in the open air,
of working frantically at fires, of rum, of listening
to the dark river that seemed to call me to rest
forever in its black solemn bosom, and gain the 
relief I sought at once.   My existence was in an
abyss of deep wretchedness, and in vain my friends
tried to rouse me.     And how was it ith Mary?
I once more passed her window.  And there prop-
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Title:Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Seven: page two hundred and twenty-five
Description:Includes the letter Alfred Waud wrote to Mrs. Jewell, explaining how he eloped with her daughter, Mary.
Date:1856-04-12
Subject:Brainard; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Jewell, Mary (Waud); Jewell, Mrs.; Jewell, Selina (Wall); Sexton, Nelly; Waud, Alfred; Women
Coverage (City/State):[New York, New York]
Scan Date:2011-02-02

 

Volume
Title:Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Seven
Description:Includes an account of his family history and descriptions of his visits with family and friends in England, witnessing a procession for Louis Napoleon in London, traveling in Paris with his brothers Charley and Edwin, his friend Harry Price's mental illness, his journey across the Atlantic to New York on the ship Washington, the marriage of Fanny Fern and James Parton, meetings of the Ornithoryncus Club in New York, and Alfred Waud's elopement with Mary Brainard.
Subject:Bohemians; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Marriage; Mental illness; Publishers and publishing; Travel; Women
Coverage (City/State):London, England; Paris, France; New York, New York
Note:Thomas Butler Gunn was born February 15, 1826, in Banbury, England, and came to New York in 1849. During the Civil War he worked as a correspondent for the New York Tribune and the New York Evening Post. He returned to England in 1863, and died in Birmingham in April 1903. The collection includes twenty-one volumes of his diaries, including newspaper clippings, letters, photographs, sketches, and various other items inserted by Gunn. Diary entries date from July 7, 1849, to April 7, 1863, and include his experiences with the New York publishing and literary world, his descriptions of boarding houses, his travels throughout the United States, and his experiences traveling with the Federal army as a Civil War correspondent.
Publisher:Missouri History Museum
Rights:Copyright 2011 Missouri History Museum.
Source:Page images, transcriptions, and metadata of the Thomas Butler Gunn diaries have been provided by the Missouri History Museum.