one day, found them calmly reposing on her bed together. The little
fool pays dearly for that ugly whistle now. / A four
miles ramble, passing around a complete square formed by the right
angled roads. Heylyn and Elisha Hall talking agriculturally, or of
the neighbours, I occasionally joining in from time to time, or loiter-
ing in the rear musing on many things.
How it was I know not, but my thoughts reverted with strange in-
tensity to a certain evening s return from little Leyton, side by
side with ___ . A summery starlight night, July, eight years
ago, my arm around her, my eyes looking into hers, her sweet breath
fanning my cheek, each revelling in the most loving, reciprocal words
words so deep, so dear Never More. This
night a yearning took possession of my soul; like unto that of
Crusoe towards human kind when on his desert isle. Where is she?
What is she? thinks she of me ever? She may be married.
She may be, Oh God dead. I pray not. I think even now, to
hear of the loss of that sweet life would shake my heart to dust.
And yet what a dry agony in the thought that she had wedded
she, another s wife. She whom I have loved All My Life./
I don t know how the devil this is. At all odd solitary
times comes comes up this thought this ghost of Past loving to haunt
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Five: page eleven|
|Description:||Reminisces about Mary Bilton.|
|Subject:||Bilton, Mary; Boardinghouses; Dobson, Mrs.; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Hall, Elisha; Heylyn, Edward; Tilton|
|Coverage (City/State):||[Genesee County, New York]|
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Five|
|Description:||Includes descriptions of Gunn looking for drawing and writing work among New York publishers, witnessing a fire at a chocolate factory, attending a religious camp meeting, his friendship with Lotty Whytal, the 1852 presidential election, a visit to Niagara Falls in the winter, a visit to Toronto, Canada, and the Crystal Palace in New York.|
|Subject:||Gunn, Thomas Butler; Railroad; Publishers and publishing; Religion; Travel; Women|
|Coverage (City/State):||New York, New York; Niagara, New York; Toronto, Ontario, Canada|
|Note:||Thomas Butler Gunn was born February 15, 1826, in Banbury, England, and came to New York in 1849. During the Civil War he worked as a correspondent for the New York Tribune and the New York Evening Post. He returned to England in 1863, and died in Birmingham in April 1903. The collection includes twenty-one volumes of his diaries, including newspaper clippings, letters, photographs, sketches, and various other items inserted by Gunn. Diary entries date from July 7, 1849, to April 7, 1863, and include his experiences with the New York publishing and literary world, his descriptions of boarding houses, his travels throughout the United States, and his experiences traveling with the Federal army as a Civil War correspondent.|
|Publisher:||Missouri History Museum|
|Rights:||Copyright 2011 Missouri History Museum.|
|Source:||Page images, transcriptions, and metadata of the Thomas Butler Gunn diaries have been provided by the Missouri History Museum.|