into the dank streets, a fire in my heart and veins, and
unspeakable thoughts in my brain.
It s well I go tomorrow. I must master this business. Hot
Passion will say Go on, thought it lead to Hell and nether
confusion, go on, for never since in Crana s Isle Paris
clasped Helen, was there form and face thou wouldst rather hold
in love extacy to thy heart than this girls. / But oh the
devils that assuredly will follow. Be noble and manly and
do no wrong here. If shame and sin come, let it not be by
thy opening the door. Supposing thou I coudst have this,
and in faith I know not, yea, or nay, supposing thine such
passion as she has to offer were possessed by thee (be still
accursed pulses at the thought!) wouldst thou wish her to be
thy companion through the serious bridging betwixt two eternities,
Life. Is she fitting for t? Couldst thou make her so?
No, and thousand times, No! And if so, is she to drift
away to fresh sorrow and wrong, having met another Scoundrel
to blacken her already obscured path. Very easy were it
to play Sophist here. To say, What is she, what comes she
of, think of the mother, the Father &c do your best to
have a pretty girl love you. But Bah! If I did wrong,
I wouldn t try to call it Right, but walk to hand-shaking
with the devil knowing him to be one.
Oh Lotty! perverse, foolish denetful, strangely frank,
not altogether bad, human creature, I would I could help thee!
That those beautiful brown eyes could look calm and peaceful.
And that the kissings of thy sweet lips did not remain on mine
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Six: page fifty-one|
|Description:||Regarding his feelings for Lotty Whytal.|
|Subject:||Gunn, Thomas Butler; Kidder; Kidder, Charlotte (Whytal, Granville); Kidder, Rebecca (Morse); Women|
|Coverage (City/State):||[New York, New York]|
|Title:||Thomas Butler Gunn Diaries, Volume Six|
|Description:||Includes descriptions of Gunn's writing and drawing work in New York, a visit to the Catskill Mountains, attending the wedding of his friend Charles Damoreau (Brown), a visit to the Crystal Palace in New York, his friend Lotty's difficult marriage to John Whytal, a sailing trip around Lake Superior, a visit to Mackinac Island in Michigan, a visit to Mammoth Cave in Kentucky, and a journey by horseback from Kentucky to Louisiana with friends.|
|Subject:||African Americans; Gunn, Thomas Butler; Marriage; Native Americans; Publishers and publishing; Slavery; Travel; Women|
|Coverage (City/State):||New York, New York; Michigan; Wisconsin; Ohio; Kentucky; Mississippi; Alabama; Louisiana|
|Note:||Thomas Butler Gunn was born February 15, 1826, in Banbury, England, and came to New York in 1849. During the Civil War he worked as a correspondent for the New York Tribune and the New York Evening Post. He returned to England in 1863, and died in Birmingham in April 1903. The collection includes twenty-one volumes of his diaries, including newspaper clippings, letters, photographs, sketches, and various other items inserted by Gunn. Diary entries date from July 7, 1849, to April 7, 1863, and include his experiences with the New York publishing and literary world, his descriptions of boarding houses, his travels throughout the United States, and his experiences traveling with the Federal army as a Civil War correspondent.|
|Publisher:||Missouri History Museum|
|Rights:||Copyright 2011 Missouri History Museum.|
|Source:||Page images, transcriptions, and metadata of the Thomas Butler Gunn diaries have been provided by the Missouri History Museum.|