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financial state � he did the swell, took her to theatres,
hired carriages &c at the expense of his creditors.   He
has plenty of employment, but is long and slow over it.
Unpleasant subject.       In confidence.   Don�t tell others in
such harsh tones.�    All true enough.     Will Waud is
just simply a selfish, conceited loafer.    I suppose he
married the girl on his usual principle of action � that of
denying himself no indulgene he could come at.   He�ll neg-
lect, perhaps ill-use, or desert her, if he grow tired of his
plaything.   For the future, he don�t think of it, apart from
an indefinite impression that abilities like his must raise
him to fortune &c.  (He has abilities but no industry.)   A
morbid ambitio impels him, not to exertion, but to a
miserable Mauicheanish dispraise of others.  He affects or
tries to believe that all is humbug and pretence � that chance
rules the world not justice.   It�s a dreary Atheism, and
no good comes of it.   Enough of him.      Phonography. Wri-
ting.   Drawing all the afternoon.  To the doctors in the
evening, he not at home.   Called at Arnold�s.  Return. Wri-
ting.   Cahill & Gun playing cribbage in the latter�s room.
  20.  Sunday.  Up by 5.   In doors till evening.  Knees
swollen and stiff, limbs aching extremely � the legiti-
mate result, says the doctor (whom I called upon) of
bile.  To Chapin�s, and then to Edwards�, returning
with Haney.       O�Brien�s antagonist was a Captain
Farnham.  The man was showing tricks at cards, which
provoked some insulting comment on O�Brien�s part.   The
ex-filibuster got his antagonist�s head �in chancery,� and
didn�t spare it.   For a man who crows on his �muscle� our