at the revelation � rather to be sad. Oh what
a crushing down and drying up of a woman�s hopes
must have occurred before she could take up this
r�le of amiability. How she must long to be bitter,
to give vent to her injuries � for what injury can be
greater than to condemn a woman to be un-loved all
through life? Oh! my sisters at home, too!
I wish to God you were married.
26. Wednesday. Round to Houston St and routed Bob
Gun up, he having been drunk over-night at the Burns
festival. Down-town with him, to Crook and Duff�s
restaurant. There till 12 or later, getting items from
Crook and going throughout establishment. Back, after
going to Constellation, Post Office &c. At work till
midnight. Col. Forbes came while I was at supper.
Told me about his new el Dorado project � gas manu-
facturing from any-thing. Wanted to borrow some money.
I had but little and have debts over probable comings-
on but I�m half-sorry I didn�t let him have a dollar
or two. Morally I�m justified. There are better people
to be relieved � sure. He sponged on Russell of the �Euro-
pean,� has depleted Parton more than once and, I suspect,
Haney � probably everybody who was accessible. To lend
him money would be to establish a borrower � sure.
Yet as he might get turned out of his boarding-house
I�ve felt a trifle mean that I didn�t give him a little
of somebody else�s money � it would have been that, as
long as I owe anything. We find it easier to sympathize