regards you intently, an almost [word crossed out] ^|distrustful| look of keenness and
desire of seeing what
you really are. [words crossed out]. A fair-face should be more tranquil and
happiness
giving. She has no full flow of girlish spirits, and controls her self. Told
me however with [word crossed out] quiet emphasis how Charley Brown had said he
didn�t think
she could Love. She�s [word crossed out] severe in judging Lotty�s wilfulness; perhaps
natural
for a woman to be so. But then, is it marvel, when the girl has been so
carelessly tended. Left about 11, a few minutes after the two masculines;
making a successful, that is to say not a dull good night.
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This girl has beauty, and concentrated common-sense, � that�s a hard quality for a
woman. I know no more of her, as yet. I think not of her loveliness of
form sensually, yet by the Aphrodite of Homer, what a moment to clasp her
in mine arms and feel her queen-like beauty glow with love and returned
transport. But that way � (ever passion of the senses lies; though I might
fall and succumb to it I know that no pure lasting love can flow from it
alone; such should follow, not lead the soul. Does she � can she imagine such
a moment I wonder? / M B. The same initials � Oh, Never
will you be mine Mary, but I think that never again can face so flash
thought and emotion into my heart, as did yours, long time ago. You were
never what I believed and are less so now, than ever, yet how pleasant was that
belief. / Walking to the Ferry, met Watts, keeper of the Nassau
Street book store & imbibed with him.
26. Saturday. Holmes wanting me, at his office all day, putting
in landscape to survey. Evening, intended crossing to New York to inquire at
boarding-house, but time waning, deserted my intent, so I went to Davis�s.
Found him & a going Irish carpenter with some score pieces of meat, as on the
morrow a great Christening party was to be given to some thirty Irish friends
